Writing a blog ..

It's been about a month now since I started writing this blog. Wow! I didn't think I could continue to write this much.. :P I sometimes write my diary -- can I still call it diary even if I don't write everyday :-? -- and I've been using the same notebook for more than 3 years now. I only write when I'm really depressed or have full of energy or encounter something interesting -- people, words, anything..
I'm still not sure why I'm writing online now.
I'm not giving out this url to so many people. (very small numbers of people who I feel that I don't really mind letting know what I'm thinking about.)
But at the same time, I don't really mind if some other people just come, read and comment. (Is it contradicting? ;) I just don't feel like telling everybody that "I'm writing my thoughts! come and read them!!" because I would like to write personal thinking as much as possible and if I know there are some audience, I will probably change the style of writing. I'll limit what I write.. It doesn't mean I want to write something bad about certain people, but you know... It's different when you are singing in a shower by yourself or singing in front of people :) But as a nature of the web, I can't be naked I guess..


I was thinking if I continue to write, I'll find my style of writing or topics that I want to focus and maybe form a more structured blog, but I guess I need more time to figure that out.

I also wonder if it's better to write the same content in English, Japanese and Chinese. Some of my friends do that. But I can't really do that with my personality :P (too lazy...) If I write something in one language and try to write the same thing in other languages, I feel like I can't really express what I want to write. It becomes more like a homework which I "have to" do rather than I "want to" do.
I pick a language to use depend on my feeling at that time and just write. Of course, my Chinese is still pretty bad and I can't really write complicated things, so I write in Chinese much less than in Japanese or English. My English is not that good either and makes tons of mistakes, but still.. It's more comfortable to write in it.

Writing a blog... so far so good :D it's good because I need to output something from myself. Otherwise I'll explode. But if I want to be an artist, I should keep holding things inside myself and let them out in some sort of art form. A blog can be an art ?